Thanksgiving

Nov 15th  Day After Surgery

I didn’t sleep at all which is typical for me.  I still can’t understand how a person can live and function on only 2-3 hours a sleep each night for over a year now.  I just can’t remember the last time I had a good nights sleep but hey at least I’m waking up!!  Recovery for the next 6 weeks.  I feel like a mummy.  My stomach and chest are both  wrapped tight.  I feel as if my organs are squished.  Again, just when I was just laying somewhat comfortable on my side I am now back to having to lay on my back as much as I can for the next 6 weeks until I heal.  I have a very hard time sleeping on my back.  With this wrap on it’s as if my kidneys and back hurt.  I’ve loosened the one around my stomach it some but it still didn’t help.

It’s so hard to have a month like October and the first two weeks of November to go back in to surgery and another 6 weeks recovery.  I am not suppose to lift or do anything.  13 months of not doing much of anything but fighting cancer, surgery’s, recovery, surgery’s, recovery, repeat and repeat ha ha is very hard to not get depressed.  I had a month where I was back to doing what I loved…playing music but this time is was even better because I was performing to help others with all the charity events and TV shows raising money.  So, that made performing even much more rewarding.  Now…back to the couch.  I hope and pray that when January comes, my recovery is done and work comes my way.

 

Nov 22  Thanksgiving Day

Remembering back to last years Thanksgiving, I couldn’t eat anything because chemo killed my taste buds and everything tasted so awful.  Today I ate two full plate fulls ha ha so I made up for it!  I’m still very sore and still wrapped so I didn’t leave my house.  My brothers had Thanksgiving with my dad because I couldn’t cook and carry the food to them and my dad can’t make it up my stairs very well.  So, I stayed at home and had some great friends over.  They all brought food and we had a great time.  I took off my stomach wrap so I could at least enjoy my two plate fulls ha ha!!   I was so thankful that I could taste the food this year.  Thankful for all of my friends and people who cared about me.  So thankful for those you really stepped up this year to help me during my illness.

Christmas has always been my favorite time of the year but after my mom passed in 2015 I haven’t felt much like decorating my house like I use to.  I use to do a lot…to a point where my friends said the house looked like a store ha ha.  This year I felt different.  With the year I had I wanted to see Christmas in my house again and knowing  friends were coming over for Thanksgiving I wanted to decorate the house and this was something I could do because nothing really weighs more than 5 pounds.

After everyone left we had a friend stay the night so we turned the tree lights and the mantle lights on, built a fire and watched TV.

November 27  “Giving Tuesday”

I still haven’t been doing much and still very uncomfortable.  I have my follow up appointment with my doctor tomorrow.  Hoping he says I can stop wearing this stomach wrap! I already know I have to wear the chest wrap for a full  5 more weeks.  He said if I had to have anther surgery he would have to put mesh in and I don’t want that so I really have to be careful this time around.

I am still so very thankful, grateful, blessed to have gotten this far and I pray that cancer never comes back but yes…I am impatient now.  Like I said, I had a month of performing and it reminded me of how much I loved it and have missed it.  Even with pain it was an incredible month so it’s hard to go back to being sick, not feeling well and surgery recovery.  I’m trying to look forward to Christmas this year.  I don’t know if it will every be the same since my mom passed but I’m going to try.  I’ve read about grief and it says to not stick to how you use to celebrate with the loved one that has passed.  To change it up, start new traditions because the old ones will never be the same.  That you will always be let down because that loved one is not with you there like the past.  So, I’m changed up my Christmas’s every year.  This year I will continue to do it differently than years past but decorating was fun to do again.  I have a Christmas song that I released in 2012 just after my brother passed.  He helped me clean up my yard before we shot this video.  The video is dedicated to him.  You can watch the video here:  It’s called Snowing In My Hometown………https://youtu.be/U2xrEYrFgRM

You can also download the song:  https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/snowing-in-my-hometown/583355453?i=583355565

My song Fight Like A Girl has been sent to radio so please call your radio stations and request it.  If they say they don’t have it…tell them it’s on their PlayMPE download site and they can download it there.  Remember radio airplay means more sales which means more money donated to breast cancer charity’s!

Since today  is “Giving Tuesday”, if you haven’t downloaded my song “Fight Like A Girl” yet, please download it today.   Proceeds will go to breast cancer research and financial aid to patients who can’t work while during treatment.  Download the song is the best way you can help me and help others.  Here’e the link:  http://smarturl.it/ACFightLikeaGirl    

and if you all would please share that link and ask your friends to download it and also share it we could raise a lot of money.