Journey to Healing

March 13th Life Post Surgery March 6, 2 weeks from the day of surgery and I got my last two drains out!! This is a huge success! Some people have to have these in for a longer time due to infections or just not healing fast enough. The plastic surgeon said every thing looked good so he removed them this morning. Hardly anything was draining in them so it’s better to get them out so they don’t get infected since they aren’t really doing anything anymore. I am very happy about this. Nothing is attached to my body now so it’s a bit more comfortable. And not having to drain and measure them a couple times a day is nice also! It feels strange when they take the drains out. They tell you to take a deep breath and then exhale hard as they pull … [Read more...] about Post Surgery

March 5 No special update today as far a medical issues but I have a lot on my mind that I wanted to share with you.     My cancer journey hit the 6 month mark last week.  6 months of worry, stress, feeling scared, not sleeping, not eating very much at all, sick and can't do anything but watch TV, read or search on the computer to pass the time.  To some, not doing anything might sound fun and relaxing but trust me..when you don't have a a choice, it isn't fun at all. I am a very independent woman.  I have never liked having to ask anyone for help.  That all has to change when you get sick with an illness that basically puts your life in danger and on hold for a long time.  My life stopped in August as far as me being who I am...a … [Read more...] about The Little Things In Life Are Huge

Feb 28th I woke up in a lot of pain across my whole chest area. Didn’t really sleep at all. I’m not sure if the pain meds are even working..?? I can’t lay all the way down because I wouldn’t be able to get up and I have drain tubes in me in the sides so I can’t lay on my sides either. So I’m propped up but laying on sheets and I manage to keep slide down during the night and have to try to push myself back upright which really hurts. For the first two weeks you really are not to do anything really. Doctor said, do not lift anything over 5 pounds and absolutely no house work! Now what woman wouldn’t want to hear that right?? It’s very hard to move around as well. Just pretend you were a 38D bra size and someone forced you to wear a 28A … [Read more...] about Best News Ever!

Feb. 27th I am still very very sore and still can’t do hardly anything on my own. I don’t feel that the pain has lightened up much at all. I will say the 4 drains they put in have not had much fluid in them over the last few days so hopefully I will get to have a couple of them removed tomorrow when I see the surgeon for my check up. Everything feels pretty numb 24 hours per day and very painful at the same time. Sometimes a shooting pain comes out of nowhere and it sends the pain level to the sky! Thank God it doesn’t last long. It’s a painful stinging feeling. Most of the pain has been in the center of my chest which I find odd. Maybe it’s deferred pain? The incisions aren’t hurting like I thought they would. My pec muscles hurt … [Read more...] about Healing From Surgery

Jan. 25th. Today is January 25th.  I haven't written lately because I wasn't sure how I would continue this blog to be honest.  After days of being pretty emotional and sad I've decided that I would just have to write how I honestly feel. I went to see my surgeon on January 18th to discuss surgery options. He did an ultra sound of my tumor and the two lymph nodes that had tested cancer positive months ago before chemo started. As I lay there hoping for him to have good news, he spoke the wonderful words, “Well the chemo did its job and has shrunk the tumor to almost nothing! I don’t really see the tumor and it seems I can only see the marker we placed by that original tumor. The lymph nodes seem to look good as well”. I lay there with … [Read more...] about Good News, Sad News